About a year ago I sent myself on the path of feeling better, mentally, physically and emotionally. At that time in my life I was in university and it was not conducive to the way my soul felt like living. For many years I had been torturing my body. I went through phases of barely eating, doing HIIT workouts and drinking 4 cups of coffee a day, not sleeping and not listening to how I was feeling. To phases of eating raw food and smoothies diets and not doing much at all physically. I spent all my extra time in the library studying until all hours of the night things that didn't light my soul on fire.
There is nothing wrong with reading and researching if you are excited about what is to come from that information. I was not that way about what I was studying at U of T. I felt like I was in a dream and not in a good way.
Do I regret going to school? No not for a second because I have learned all the lessons necessary to move onto the next chapter in my life. I am so grateful for the people I have met during that period of my life. I am a better person because of it.
Some lessons I learned were greatly influenced by the people I spent my time with. I awakened my interest in business and the world of corporate life which I never ever thought was for me and still don't. I learned that the world is so much more intricately organized and I was determined not to be a slave to it.
It peaked my interest in working for myself, creating a community that allows you to be prosperous while remaining compassionate. I was taught how to simply appreciate my freedom of health and of where I am, where I have the possibility of going in the world. That I should be overwhelmingly grateful not to be in physical pain everyday.
I needed to learn to let go of negativity while standing up for myself and confronting the things or people that plagued my mind not for need of confrontation but for cleansing and peace of mind.
The best of all brought me to a place where I learned to believe and continue to believe. I learned that nothing and no one except yourself stands in the way of your happiness and success. I put them together because Tony Robins said something in an interview that stood out to me and that was "Success without fulfillment is the ultimate failure."
So about a year ago I decided I was going to overwhelm myself even more by taking on my passions. As well as full time schooling to satisfy those who did not understand yet the infinite possibilities that you can achieve if you put your mind to it. As well as working to be able to pay for that schooling. I had already been doing yoga for 5-6 years and decided I would kick it up to the next level and become a teacher. I had no intention of teaching necessarily but I wanted to learn more in depth the history and physical aspects of the all encompassing life of yoga.
I was torn because I did not believe in my ability to create the life I envisioned through yoga, I saw the individuals who inspired me in the yoga community who did not have the life I wanted. So I stayed in school, growing more and more unfulfilled.
I can thank my mother for helping me be open minded in a world where we are trained to be consumers, to work for someone else and get paid for our time rather than be paid for our unique abilities. She had joined a network marketing company and was becoming this whole new person, she was exploring herself and her potential and it inspired me. I was proud of her but I didn't see myself joining that company, I didn't believe in it myself. It didn't flick that switch I was talking about with my soul fire. It did help me see how times are changing, the corporate world I was talking about earlier is changing and I was so happy that I wouldn't have to sit at a desk 9-5.
Following that I met a gentleman who became extremely important in my life. He is many things to me and the thing I am most grateful for is his extreme ability to stay true to himself. Humble and powerful. I can see him reading this right now, he has a way of being so incredibly strong and inside he is sensitive and thoughtful. I can see him curling up into his little shell of shy, not being able to contain the smile of gratitude across his face.
He introduced me to a community and I call it that because it is a network marketing company but until I began to learn about it I didn't fully understand "network marketing". I now recognize that I have found my people, generous, genuine, thoughtful individuals I am so honoured to work with. I don't owe anyone my time, they don't owe me anything, but the mutual respect is there. We all explore life, the world together, get healthier and develop ourselves.
What is important in life is gratitude and fulfillment. Your soul recognizes those things that will fulfill you. All you need to do is be in tune enough to take part. Be grateful enough, don't take your beautiful life for granted and express what you want to when you want to.
Never regret the things you have gone through or decisions, or people you have spent your energy on. All of it was worth it. More than we can even understand. The universal plan is so much bigger than what we can comprehend you just have to dream it and it will come into fruition.
Thank you all for hearing my ramblings today, I hope this brought you peace, gratitude, or vision and the courage to go get something.
My question for you today is: What is your dream? Who do you want to be, feel that person, feel a day in their life, and become it.